There comes a time in your life where you have to take a deep breath, step back and say "wait I think I already figured this out...why am I stressing so much?". Ladies and gentleman that point for me is today. Let me back up a little bit and explain. I started this blog journey about a year and a half ago now and the initial goal was to be able to get my jumbled up thoughts from my head out to the public and hopefully someone would read one of them and it would help them in some way. It started off fairly simple and even though there weren't a ton of people reading it I felt like I was at the very least listening to what God was telling me to do and frankly, that's all I was worried about. Then the devil decided that he didn't like me listening to God and he started to work on me big time using something that I was very proud of....he began to tell me I was wasting my time and that no one was reading it so I really should stop. You see, I have a big problem listening to what the world tells me I am instead of listening to what He tells me I am. It's a problem that I have tried and tried to do better on for the last few years. So now back to my initial statement....I have been keeping a secret from most people lately. I decided a couple months ago that I was finally going to do something that I've always wanted to do....I'm going back to school. When I initially went to school I'll be honest, I went to school to try to play baseball longer. That's hard for me to even go back and read with the mindset I have now. Life now is just a bit different...the reason I want to go back to school is so that I can have a better shot to move up with my job to help support my family better and to show my kids just how important an education really is. If you didn't notice, my "why" is and always will be my family. Truthfully I stopped writing my blog out of sheer laziness. I felt like no one was really going to miss it and just faded it into the background of my life instead of making time for it. Well lately this random jumble of thoughts I like to call my blog has been on my mind a lot. So much so that I went back and reread a bunch of the old ones. And then it happened, that moment I referenced earlier. You see I thought God wanted me to write all of these for someone else to get help from....actually it was for me, others are just a bonus. This go back to school journey I have been on started off like a rocket. I signed up to get some more info on the program and then decided that I didn't want to wait that long so I went ahead and did my application for the school. I got my acceptance letter and about a week later was contacted by the admissions counselor to start the next steps....she started going over them with me and I was so fired up about this whole process that everything she was telling me I needed to do I had already done. I felt unstoppable. Then the devil said "oh wait, Steve is getting excited about something time to throw up some road blocks". the last month or so has been non stop issues with financial aid. They ask for extra info and I send it in and a few days later they need something else. I had finally reached a point where the excitement of going back was starting to lessen. Thankfully, I have the BEST wife in the world who always encourages and supports me and I've learned to lean on friends who are more like family to listen and lift me up when I need it! One of the best friends a guy could ever ask for said to me just the other day when I was stressing out about all of this "God's timing not ours". Man did that step on my toes! If you've been around since this blog journey started or have gone back to read old ones then you may remember that I did a whole post of His Timing Not Mine. I talked about how I had applied for a new job and thought I had it but I had to wait and how hard it was to realize that His timing is perfect and sometimes it doesn't line up with my timing but it works out in the end. That job that sparked that post is the same job I am now loving and the one I am wanting to go to school to advance in. God has already set your steps in front of you. There may be 20 steps where you would only like there to be 10 but I assure you God's path is FAR better than the one we have in our minds. He wants us to prosper but He also wants us to do it the right way. I know without a shadow of a doubt that God wants me to go back to school, He has had it on my mind so strongly. Now I just have take a step back, take a deep breath and say " I already figured this out, why am I stressing so much?" I pray that whatever you are going through you remember that sometimes it may seem like what you are wanting to happen is never going to happen because it has taken too long, but God.....those are the magic words....look it up, there are a ton of places in the Bible where something bad seems to be happening and then, "but God"! God is going to not only show up in your situation but I pray that He will show out in your situation. I'm going to simply trust Him completely and get back to what he told me to do quite awhile ago, so I will be back in the habit of writing what is on my heart. I hope that you will join me on this journey and as always I love all of you and please reach out and let me know if there is anything I can be praying about for you!
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